Well, it has been probably a year since I’ve blogged here, or anywhere for that matter. The short version is I went through six months of depression, one month of ECT, received a late stage lyme diagnosis and had heart complications over the summer. Things got better, but worse again (lyme) and I think I have a title for my next book:  “I’ve been Lymed”.  What do you think?  So now I’ve got the physical and the mental illness and it feels swell.

Sorry to bore you. I did have one fantastic month, July, where the antibiotic was kicking ass and I felt better than I had in probably two or so decades. It was glorious! I woke up at 6:00 or 7:00 am, after a perfect 8 hours, and walked 1.5 to 2 miles. I’d get a bunch of work done with the clearest head since I don’t know when. Thankfully, I worked hard because I applied for grants and got one. That is how I am now out of medical debt. Hallelujah! Now, if I could pay off the cars, the house and the credit cards, well that would be a miracle of epic proportions.

In the meantime, all the mental health holidays have whizzed by without any mention from me. It’s okay, right? I’m busy writing a book, a blog for BPHope and Huff Post and really trying to focus on DinerGirl.  My mom thinks I’m afraid of it because I’m a perfectionist. Well…I’m sure that’s part of it, but it’s a nightmare.  When I wrote INCJB, I had an intense, writer/editor boot camp style so once I had my first 150, the skeleton (with some meat on it), once I had that, it flowed nicely to finish in several months. The second book was a collaboration. So this one, this one will be a bear. Plus, I started it right before Hurr Sandy decided to level our area and office turned in to recovery and hotel bed and then 2nd book contract came. Do you see where I’m going with this? It’s hard to keep enthusiasm going for an Achilles heel type of book. I hope I get motivated again, and soon, because that is the book I must finish before I attack the others.

And I really want to write again…I’m not feeling the editing. Maybe I’ll divide my day so I can.

Anyhoo, aren’t you thrilled you tuned in? I’m so boring these days. My big excitement is that I started yoga again. *(Thank you, Groupon.)  I wasn’t in love with being six inches from all neighbors, or the Madonna infused soundtrack (what happened to calm music?) or the shouting teacher, but I kept saying ‘this class only cost $3.90.’ Again, thank you, Groupon. You rock. And so, I can try another place when I’m done. Damn Sandy literally blew through and out my favorite yoga studio in Sea Bright. (Even the post office never came back.) There’s finally some clothing store there but not Bhrama Yoga. I’m terribly sad and really noticing it now when I am trying to find a replacement.

Ah well, you can’t have it all. Right?  I’ll settle for good mental health…until winter comes. For now you better believe I’ve got my light box on!!!!!  🙂



3 thoughts on “Hellooo

  1. I’m so glad you’re back!
    I cannot BELIEVE what you’ve been through.:0 Congrats on the grant!

    The title “I’ve Been Lymed” cracked me up, and I love it, but I know there’s nothing funny about such a horrendous dx. There’s a book that came out last May called “Bite Me: How Lyme Disease Stole My Childhood, Made Me Crazy, and Almost Killed Me” by Ally Hilfiger. I don’t know if it got good reviews…

    I tweeted this post, although I don’t have a lot of followers anymore. Twitter got rid of my handle and all my contacts after I deactivated my profile, those stinkers. Oh well.

    Once again I’m glad to see you blogging here, at HuffPost, BP Hope and elsewhere. Now that I’ve rturned ​to social media I’ll share anything you put out to the universe, because YOU ROCK!

    • Thx, Dyane, and just in case you didn’t see my tweet (which you probably did since you too have returned to social media) CONGRATS ON MEETING YOUR DEADLINE!!!! I KNEW you could do it. The hard part is over. Now it’s just the pictures and stuff, which you have already done. Editing, since you are such an excellent writer, will be a breeze. They’ll hire an editor who will find virtually nothing wrong and ask a minimal amount of questions (*to earn their pay). PHP will give you 2-3 weeks, in early Dec. is my prediction. Our editing deadline was juuust before Xmas, lovely. That was probably my main complaint, otherwise they were amazing! But since you had an early Oct. deadline, you should be fine! BRAVO, sista! I’m so proud of you!!! Yea hoo ha. Now it’s time to breathe and enjoy now until end of Nov. (again, just my prediction!) I think they’ll get ya after T-giving. 🙂 Great job!@!()%*&@(!_&!_!!!!!

      • Girlfriend, thank you SO SO SO much for writing this comment!!!!
        YES, I saw & liked the tweet you sent – thanks mucho!

        I can’t tell you how %**^^(*&( relieved I was to meet that deadline. I was exhausted for 2 days afterwards and I felt like I gave birth to rug rat #3. But it was amazing too – no one could take that away from me, ya know?

        I’ve been in touch w/managing editor Billie Brownell. I was told I needed to complete the metadata sheet along with the MS and I busted that out.

        Now I’m waiting to hear from the editor but I’m not sitting on my butt twiddling my thumbs – the front & back covers are just about DONE (I will tell you more deets via email & I’ll send you the image, which I’m keeping under wraps for now….and I’m researching the world fo book promotion. I’m getting ready to pursue blurbs once the cover is done so I can lure folks with the image as well as a sample chapter, yadda yadda, etc. etc.

        I bought a Grammarly Premium subscription for a month. That helped me improve the ms; of course it made lots of mistakes but it caught some good ones too and it was worth the $29.

        Thanks for preparing me for the timeframe that might land upon me – 2-3 weeks is way shorter than I expected (I thought 1-2 months might be it) but that’s cool. I have high-caffeine coffee and I’ll do it!!!!!!!! Hope you’re doing really well and I can’t wait to hear the latest about what you’ve been up to – thanks for the encouragement – it’s extra-special coming from YOU! ❤️

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